I gave up in the marriage and now in the divorce?

He hurt me so bad. Ignored me, cheated on me...ect ect.. we seperated 2 times and not the hearing for the divorce is coming soon. I resent the fact he lied to me and manipulated to get what he wanted and is still doing so. He had people following me and playing games on the internet. Of course I can't prove this but we all know things like this go on. I asked God to help me and I decided to not fight him at all because I was hurting so bad and so were our children. I love them enough to just stop the fighting. I signed away all I invested and what I know I should fight for. It's not worth it to me anymore. I feel it would taint me and in 2008 I really want to start fresh. All I can hope and pray is that God knows I tried and wanted to do the right thing by just letting it go. Am I crazy for doing this? I am putting my trust in God for my future. My family and friends think that I was crazy for just letting it go.